the long and winding list

1. accepted on a wedding show, but the host (Clinton Kelly?) thinks that my wedding planning is perfect, specifically my gown. I think to myself, that's cool, but I want them to buy some fuller flower arrangements.
2. at some resort with group of people I don't know. standing at balcony, bar below; a fight erupts and one man is seriously injured. when I look down again after gaining composure, I see that someone has attached a mop stick to the fallen man and is using his body to wipe around blood on the dark hardwood floor - his open eyes stare blankly above. I manically call out, and people try to calm me by telling me that the man is dead, as if that somehow rationalizes, dignifies the horror.
3. trying to get out of resort. Sinatra is my partner. we run through dark rooms; up and down spiral staircases we trample. outside we try to find a car to get us gone. there is a traffic jam due to a tractor trailer blocking an intersection.
4. I am standing in line waiting for, I don't know what, when a producer approaches me and asks me about modeling. She tells me I am recognizable and I tell her I did print work in NY. we chat further and she offers me a job.
5. at the resort with my friend DS. we arrive under a carport and immediately she changes into swimwear. I walk out to the pool area and know no one. D is off laughing with strangers around a bonfire.
6. I am standing beside a long sidewalk; I watch as a group of young girls and guys meet up and begin to pair off. As they pair up, they walk two-by-two down the sidewalk toward me. I laugh to myself that the couples nearly resemble each other, and that they seemed to have picked a likely version of themselves. Steve Kroft, from 60 Minutes (whose name I had to wikipedia this morning) is walking among the kids interviewing one couple.
7. I am with my husband and I notice that his nose has a long, syringe-like growth on it. Where his normal nose ends, this fine growth continues on, with a tiny bulb at its end; it looks like an antenna, perhaps has those abilities.